The Dark Knight

My outlook on life wasn't always so positive.  I was just thinking about that.  Actually, a few years ago, I had a bad year.  I won't say it was just the worst because there is always someone that has it worse and you never know what the future holds.  At the time, it just seemed like a bad, hopeless year.  I had gained about 20 pounds and was just out of shape.  With that, my energy levels were low.  I had recently moved to a new location and didn't really know anyone.  I was unmotivated at work after I didn't get the promotion I had hoped for.  Financially, I was living paycheck to paycheck.  That's not suffering but it's not financially stable.  I was also lost in relationships.  Overall, nothing was going my way.  At the end of that year, my Grandma passed away.  That put the darkest cloud over my head.  I felt like I was stuck in quicksand and the more I fought, the deeper I sank.

Off The Sidelines

Being forced to sit on the sidelines sucks!  That's all there is to it.  Luckily, I managed to not push myself too fast.  I gave my ankle time to heal.  I decided to try running a couple days ago to see how it felt.  It felt good, no discomfort.  I did wear a more supportive shoe this time.  The shoes gave me a bit more confidence to push myself during a few stretches of my run.  I hope you're not imagining me as an everyday runner type.  That is not me.  I run a couple of times a week.  During this run, I did walk a bit but I still completed the 2 mile run.  Today, I will try running again.  I hope to improve my run today.  Regardless of how I run today, I'm just excited to be off the sidelines.


The title says exactly how I feel right now...sidelined.  I'm just sitting by as things happen around me.  Literally sitting.  I guess I should give you the back story.  Yesterday, I agreed to play ultimate football with my coworkers.  I told myself I wouldn't push myself past my physical limits but once the game started, my competitive spirit took over.  I wasn't the all-star but I made great contributions to my team: some great passes and some phenomenal catches (which probably seem better in my thoughts than reality)!  About half way through the game, my lower back began to tighten and hurt.  I moved a bit slower but I still had bursts of greatness because I knew my teammates needed me.  Afterwards, my back was killing me.  I could still walk, just uncomfortably.  Then later at work, while sitting, my ankle just began to throb.  At the end of my workday, I stood up to leave and I could not put pressure on my ankle.  That is the twist in my story.  It wasn't my back that sidelined me, it was my ankle.  I guess I sprained it but I didn't realize it until later.  So now, I'm sitting here...sidelined.


It's a new year!  So far, everything seems about the same.  Now is the time that people begin working towards their resolutions.  Mine are the usual.  Be better at love, work, fitness, and finances.  Pursue my goals.  I think I'll stop there.  If I really sit and think about it, I'm sure my list would just continue to grow.  The main theme of my resolutions is to be better.  Some areas of my resolutions just require a little improvement while others will be more of a challenge.  "Being better" isn't really a well defined goal but it works for me.  I just want to see improvement and growth in myself.  So, what are your resolutions for 2012?